Then, Easter changed. It became a season of darkness and perpetual death. This darkness settled in my heart after we miscarried our first and only biological child. I was left barren and fruitless. Although Jesus died and resurrected, I remained dead inside because my fertility was dead and would never resurrect.

There's a beautiful juxtaposition on this night between anticipation and dread, the not yet and the soon-to-be; the long-awaited and much-feared, a holy tension.

Society tends to define a woman's fruitfulness by her ability to bear children. This concept of fruitfulness is narrow and can leave those..

Dear Sisters, while the title of this post may seem grim or intimidating, I promise you there will be just as much light as there is dark ..

Shiloh IVF Ministry has formed as a new ministry, uniquely set up to accompany and serve women, men and couples who are struggling with heal

Sisters, have you ever felt anxiety over a situation beyond your control? Believed that you could never be loved because of what was...

“I’m going to be honest with you because someone needs to be. At your current weight, you have no business trying to conceive”. I steady...

(You can read part 1 of this series here.) I was staring at the ultrasound machine, hearing the explanation of how early it can pick up a...

It was movie night. I thought I was sitting down to watch a light-hearted horror movie (Tim Burton’s Beetlejuice). Instead, I had stumbled..

Society wants us to believe that a marriage is only fruitful when children come from it. If that were the case, what would be the purpose...

On a recent morning, I was in the throes of PMS (sometimes this verges on its more severe form, PMDD). I was tired after a restless night...

It is a precarious concept to open your mind and heart enough to ponder if suffering is a blessing from God. When I first began to write...

On July 26 the Church celebrates the feast of Sts. Anne and Joachim, parents of Our Lady, and the fourth Sunday of July is therefore known..

How on earth could I worship an all-loving God week after week but believe He made a mistake when He made me? ...

A wise and holy priest once told me that we don’t get to Easter Sunday without Good Friday. Simply put, we must go through suffering to...

Our priest talked about how sin results in death – a moral death and existential death. Moral death in a person causes confusion, and the..

Struggling with infertility or loss can be a time of deep pain and sorrow, even to the point of having suicidal thoughts. Social media is...

There have been so many times in the depths of my grief when I felt as if I, too, was hanging on to that single thread. After my losses...

As we begin Lent, I find myself being led to this moving icon of Christ by one favorite Dominican, Blessed Fra Angelico. Art has always...

Is there anything that more closely resembles the journey of infertility than the season of Lent? 40 long days alone in the desert, being...